HEY!!!!!First of all, thanks again to everyone who's read. Holy shit, over 6,000 people have read this thing. I've been on my cell phone quite a lot in the last 12 hours or so, Cassie sent me a picture of her Christmas tree and Danny was telling me about his new job and how he starts Monday morning. They're both pretty damn happy, and I envy them in a way. Obviously, I haven't exactly been happy. I just wish things were better with Jack. I could wish that for the rest of my life, though, and get nowhere. I hate how weak I am when 
it comes to him. I'm going to try some Wiccan spells and chants to try to cheer myself up a little, hopefully it works. I'm feeling very witchy today. ^_~ It doesn't help that he added 6 more "girlfriends" to his Facebook page. In a jealous and weak moment, I went and added these 2 guys I used to like, but haven't seen or talked to in years. It's crazy they even remembered me. I kind of doubt Jack will get jealous, though. I guess it's a good thing they're still kind of gorgeous, but they have nothing on Jack. I feel more and more like I'm just a friend of convenience for most of my friends, anymore. I know it's probably because I don't put myself out there very much, because that scares the shit out of me. I hate that I'm one of his "girlfriends", yet he'd probably never consider me real girlfriend material. I also hate how people just assume things when I tell them I'm friends with a guy in a band. The first thing that popped into Trevor's head when I told him about Jack was that I'd be hopping into bed with him as soon as he put his guitar down, and that pisses me off. I don't like that they automatically think that's all we could do together. Not that I'd kick him out of bed, but I don't want people thinking so little of either of us. I guess that's really it for right now. Th
anks again for reading and I'll be back as soon as I can.
it comes to him. I'm going to try some Wiccan spells and chants to try to cheer myself up a little, hopefully it works. I'm feeling very witchy today. ^_~ It doesn't help that he added 6 more "girlfriends" to his Facebook page. In a jealous and weak moment, I went and added these 2 guys I used to like, but haven't seen or talked to in years. It's crazy they even remembered me. I kind of doubt Jack will get jealous, though. I guess it's a good thing they're still kind of gorgeous, but they have nothing on Jack. I feel more and more like I'm just a friend of convenience for most of my friends, anymore. I know it's probably because I don't put myself out there very much, because that scares the shit out of me. I hate that I'm one of his "girlfriends", yet he'd probably never consider me real girlfriend material. I also hate how people just assume things when I tell them I'm friends with a guy in a band. The first thing that popped into Trevor's head when I told him about Jack was that I'd be hopping into bed with him as soon as he put his guitar down, and that pisses me off. I don't like that they automatically think that's all we could do together. Not that I'd kick him out of bed, but I don't want people thinking so little of either of us. I guess that's really it for right now. Th
anks again for reading and I'll be back as soon as I can. Today's song is "Kill Caustic" by A.F.I.
BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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