Good morning (again)

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Good morning, guys. I can't believe I'm getting closer and closer to going home. I'm very happy to go home, believe me. It seemed like I had a really long time here, but not so much anymore.  I'm hoping to hear from Jack again soon, an that we can continue our song quote war. I really wish we were together. I got asked again a couple of days ago why I'm not married or at least have a boyfriend. That shit needs to stop!!! I've been told it's a shame because I'm too smart, talented, and pretty to be single. >_> I can't tell you how much it annoys me when other people act like they know what's best for me and what I should do with my life. I hate that, even if it is supposed to be well intentioned. I want them to back off and let me make my own choices. I love my family, but that still gives them no right to act like they know better than I do what I should do with my life. I think that's it for right now.  Thanks as always for reading. ^_^
Today's song is " Long forgotten sons" by Rise Against
BYE!!!!

Homesick again

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Good morning, guys. I have this feeling of homesickness again for some reason. I'd be lying if I said it weren't partially because of Jack. I can't help missing him, even though it seems we've both been having a good time apart, mostly. He was being so funny and cute again that I just couldn't help myself. I had an amazing day yesterday, but still can't wait to see him again. I got to talk a bit to my favorite cousin, and it turns out he's a vegetarian too. I love that!!! I guess that's really it for today, thanks for reading.
Today's song is " A devil for me" - by Black Veil Brides
BYE!!!!

Good morning!!!!!

HEY!!!
I had an amazing, yet incredibly weird day yesterday. I had a great time just doing a little shopping, and taking it easy, then I come back and find that another of Jack's friends friended me on Facebook. What's weirder is it was a girl, I guess maybe he thought we'd get along or something and suggested we be friends, but I don't get it. It isn't that I'm not happy about getting to know another of his friends, but it's still a little weird for me. I love him, but definitely still don't totally understand him. I kind of worry that there might be competition between us for his attention, I get the feeling she digs him too. I really can't wait to see him again. I think that's about it for right now. Thanks a lot for reading.
Today's song is "Friday I'm in love' by The Cure
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Peace and quiet..kind of

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It's a relatively peaceful, quiet day today and I'm very grateful. I didn't have such a great day yesterday, and I'm hoping today will make up for it. I had to try to break up yet another argument between Mom and Mark. I can't keep doing this, it's unfair for them to just expect me to fix their problems for them. So why do I keep doing it? I don't want either of them to unhappy, and it seems that they're both too proud and stubborn to try to make up on their own. I don't want to keep doing this, however, but I don't know how to get them to stop this one their own. I don't want them to keep doing this, I'm afraid that's about all I've figured out. I think that's it for right now.
Thanks for reding.
Today's song is "Welcome home (sanitarium) by Metallica
BYE!!!!!!

Homesick

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Good morning, everyone. I'm feeling a bit homesick this morning, and it sucks. My family is doing everything they can to make me feel welcome, and so that isn't the problem. I just miss having my friends around, and I miss being able to go where I want and do what I want. Here I feel like I can't really refuse an invitation without seeming like a bitch. I was really just feeling homesick yesterday, and it's carried over into today it seems. Yesterday was a good day, too, so I don't know what the problem is. I even got to see my favorite cousin yesterday for the first time in 8 years. I miss Danny and Cory very much, too. I don't miss my dad, per se. I just hope he's alright. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by all I have to do when I get home, so I don't necessarily miss that. I miss just having to do my own thing, and not care if anyone else likes it. I hope Cassie and I can make up, again. I don't know why we can't seem to bury the hachet for good. I really miss Jack and Mike, too. They're having a show about a week and a half after I get home and I can't wait to go. I hope Jack will invite me for the 14th time to come watch him play. By all accounts everything is going really well with their album, and I'm glad, but I hope to see them before they leave for yet another long tour. I have an invitation to hang out with Angela a few days before Jack and Mike's show, and I think I'd really better go. These relationships are important, and I'm not going to have them anymore if I don't see these people. Okay, it's not the place so much as the people my heart misses right now. It's wrong that I don't seem to have time to hang out with the people who matter most to me, isn't it? Jack and Mike always seem to know when I need to be cheered up, and they've done that a few times since I've been here. I owe them for that. I think that's it for right now. Thanks a lot for reading.
Today's song is " The Ghost of You" by
My Chemical Romance
BYE!!!!

Back again

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Good morning, everyone. I intend this post to be a little longer. I had an amazing 28th birthday, though I still hate to admit that's my age. I really didn't expect to hear anything from Nate again, but he wished me a happy birthday and seemed to actually mean it. I think he's finally come to the conclusion that our friendship is worth saving, and he's going to try to make it work. That's quite honestly one of the best birthday gifts I could have hoped for, though I still wonder if maybe I'm being unfair to him. I'm not sure what changed his mind, but I'm grateful for it. I got the funniest messages from Jack and Mike ysterday, we were able to be nerdy together long distance and it was great. I'm glad to be here doing things with my family, but I can't tell you how much I miss my friends. Jack and Mike have been really hard at work on their music, and decided to take the day off yesterday and be nerds. I LOVE THAT!!!! I don't know if even after years of friendship they realize just how much it cheers me up to see their faces and hear their voices. I don't know what I'd do without them. Cassie and I still haven't talked. I guess I should tell you what our fight was about. She was totally ignoring Mark and I, acting like we didn't know anything about where we were going, and I called her on it because it pissed me off. I pointed out that there were things we never would have found in London if it hadn't been for me. She then got pissed off and said not to act like I was so great because I was right for once. Then, I'm afraid it just devolved into another shouting match between us. I just hate it when she acts like she knows everything and everyone else is wrong and stupid. I got even angrier when she started making fun of Mark, no one makes fun of him in front of me and gets away with it. Honestly, I was so glad when she got on the plane to go home. I don't know where this leaves us, though. I don't think we've made any progress in our relationship and hope it didn't damage it. I have to say that maybe we'll be happy to see each other again when I get home. The weird thing is, I can almost promise she'll invite me up to her place to go swimming again this summer and it'll be like we didn't have this giant stupid fight. I guess that's really it for right now. Thanks a lot for reading, I appreciate it with all my heart.
Today's song is 'Cemtary Gates' by Pantera
BYE!!!

Still here ^_^

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I'm sorry I haven't been on in such a long time. I WILL write more, I promise. I just finally have time. London is now one of my favorite places in the world. Paris was nice, but Cassie and I got into a fight and that kind of ruined it. I haven't talked to her in weeks, and part of me knows it's my fault. I don't really know what to say to patch things up and think maybe we both need more time to cool off and calm down. I miss the living hell out of Jack and Mike, it sucks so much being seperated from them. I also want to say hi and welcome to my new follower. Thanks!!! I want to express sympathy to the victims of the Boston bomb attacks. I'm happy seeing my huge extended family, though I've already been asked why I'm not married. I'd try to explain that I totally have someone in mind that I want to be with, but they wouldn't like him. I don't think they'd understand why I feel this way about Jack. I think that's really it for right now.

  

Thanks for reading.

BYE!!!

Today's song is "Helena" by My Chemical Romance