I hope I'm not contagious, I'd feel terrible if I got him sick. We would be even though, if I got him sick, I'm pretty sure he gave me his cold a few months ago during one of our little chats. I couldn't help smiling up at him, of course, like a total moron. I was right about him being smart, though, he's a lot better at math than I am. I shouldn't keep thinking about him, I'm only making this worse. He seems damn near perfect though, and that worries me, because he seems too good to be true. He's even the perfect height, taller than I am, but not to the point where he towers over me and I look like a midget next to him. I'm only about 4" 10', so it's hard to find a guy who doesn't make me look and feel like a midet. It's also hard not to get mistaken for a little girl being this height, and it sucks. I wanted to buy a Marilynn Manson cd about 5 months ago, and I had to show ID to prove I was old enough to buy it. >_> I guess I should be glad I don't look my age, but it gets to be insulting when people mistake you for someone about 8 years younger than you are all the time. People have even mistaken my youngest brother, who's just barely 16, for my older brother because he's tall and doesn't really look like a kid anymore. He sure as hell acts like a kid most of the time, trust me. But I love that about him, to tell you the truth. If I feel any better tomorrow, I'm going to see if I can find yet another excuse to spend time with Jack, it always seems like I have to go again too soon. I kind of wonder if he notices that I only really come into the store he works at when he's there. I wonder what he'd do and think if he knew. I realized that I forgot to include a song of the day for my last entry, so I'll add 2 today. "Bother" by Stone Sour was the song I was going to use for the last entry, not only because it's my favorite, but because I understand it very well. The lyrics do a good job of expressing how I've often felt about myself, my parents, my life, etc. The song for today will be " Long Forgotten Sons" by Rise Against, I just really love it. I've listened to it so many times, I've had dreams where I've heard it playing. I also really like the idea it conveys of people striving to improve things that they themselves didn't ruin, solely to make things better for the future. I guess that's it for now. BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Happy again.....
I saw Jack again today, and really wish I'd felt better, so as to be a little more engaging. I'm beat, though it feels like I really haven't done anything all day, my stomach is killing me, and my nose is running. I hate feeling like this, and I think it's my sister's fault. Those are her symptoms exactly, I'm afraid. I had to at least see if I could see him again, I kind of miss him if I don't see him every once in a while. Plus, I REALLY wanted the Misfits shirt and MCR gloves I bought. I think they'll go together really well, and are both awesome. I didn't really feel like talking today, even to him, though of course, I didn't ignore him. I think that would be nearly impossible for me. I feel so stupid, I should have been able to think of something more to keep the conversation going, especially since he was still being really sweet and nice. 
I hope I'm not contagious, I'd feel terrible if I got him sick. We would be even though, if I got him sick, I'm pretty sure he gave me his cold a few months ago during one of our little chats. I couldn't help smiling up at him, of course, like a total moron. I was right about him being smart, though, he's a lot better at math than I am. I shouldn't keep thinking about him, I'm only making this worse. He seems damn near perfect though, and that worries me, because he seems too good to be true. He's even the perfect height, taller than I am, but not to the point where he towers over me and I look like a midget next to him. I'm only about 4" 10', so it's hard to find a guy who doesn't make me look and feel like a midet. It's also hard not to get mistaken for a little girl being this height, and it sucks. I wanted to buy a Marilynn Manson cd about 5 months ago, and I had to show ID to prove I was old enough to buy it. >_> I guess I should be glad I don't look my age, but it gets to be insulting when people mistake you for someone about 8 years younger than you are all the time. People have even mistaken my youngest brother, who's just barely 16, for my older brother because he's tall and doesn't really look like a kid anymore. He sure as hell acts like a kid most of the time, trust me. But I love that about him, to tell you the truth. If I feel any better tomorrow, I'm going to see if I can find yet another excuse to spend time with Jack, it always seems like I have to go again too soon. I kind of wonder if he notices that I only really come into the store he works at when he's there. I wonder what he'd do and think if he knew. I realized that I forgot to include a song of the day for my last entry, so I'll add 2 today. "Bother" by Stone Sour was the song I was going to use for the last entry, not only because it's my favorite, but because I understand it very well. The lyrics do a good job of expressing how I've often felt about myself, my parents, my life, etc. The song for today will be " Long Forgotten Sons" by Rise Against, I just really love it. I've listened to it so many times, I've had dreams where I've heard it playing. I also really like the idea it conveys of people striving to improve things that they themselves didn't ruin, solely to make things better for the future. I guess that's it for now. BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope I'm not contagious, I'd feel terrible if I got him sick. We would be even though, if I got him sick, I'm pretty sure he gave me his cold a few months ago during one of our little chats. I couldn't help smiling up at him, of course, like a total moron. I was right about him being smart, though, he's a lot better at math than I am. I shouldn't keep thinking about him, I'm only making this worse. He seems damn near perfect though, and that worries me, because he seems too good to be true. He's even the perfect height, taller than I am, but not to the point where he towers over me and I look like a midget next to him. I'm only about 4" 10', so it's hard to find a guy who doesn't make me look and feel like a midet. It's also hard not to get mistaken for a little girl being this height, and it sucks. I wanted to buy a Marilynn Manson cd about 5 months ago, and I had to show ID to prove I was old enough to buy it. >_> I guess I should be glad I don't look my age, but it gets to be insulting when people mistake you for someone about 8 years younger than you are all the time. People have even mistaken my youngest brother, who's just barely 16, for my older brother because he's tall and doesn't really look like a kid anymore. He sure as hell acts like a kid most of the time, trust me. But I love that about him, to tell you the truth. If I feel any better tomorrow, I'm going to see if I can find yet another excuse to spend time with Jack, it always seems like I have to go again too soon. I kind of wonder if he notices that I only really come into the store he works at when he's there. I wonder what he'd do and think if he knew. I realized that I forgot to include a song of the day for my last entry, so I'll add 2 today. "Bother" by Stone Sour was the song I was going to use for the last entry, not only because it's my favorite, but because I understand it very well. The lyrics do a good job of expressing how I've often felt about myself, my parents, my life, etc. The song for today will be " Long Forgotten Sons" by Rise Against, I just really love it. I've listened to it so many times, I've had dreams where I've heard it playing. I also really like the idea it conveys of people striving to improve things that they themselves didn't ruin, solely to make things better for the future. I guess that's it for now. BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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