Two terrible weeks

HEY!!!!I'm sorry I was gone for a while again. These have been 2 of the worst weeks of this year. My uncle died a few days ago. I got a call from my aunt late Wednesday night, telling me he'd passed away. I feel guilty for not going to Austria to see him and my aunt now. I know I should probably spend more time over there with my family, but it's so expensive. Seriously, it was less than half the price to fly to Tokyo than it would have been to fly to Vienna. Was I being selfish for going to Japan instead of Austria? I was chatting with Sabrina  last week and she seemed so disappointed that I'm not planning on flying over there anytime  soon. I hope I'm not pushing them all away to the point where they won't want to see me anymore when I go back there. Speaking of people I've pushed away, Jack is officially a married man and my heart needs some time to adjust to that. Mike went to the wedding and told me Jack and his wife looked so happy. I can just imagine his beautiful smile as they walked out of the church together. I'm going to be fine eventually, but this wound is still a little too new to really pick at anymore right now. I want Jack to be happy, and I'm happy with Kyle; but long distance relationships suck ass. I still haven't told anyone but Angela about Kyle and myself yet, I'm so afraid of how everyone's going to react. My parents are going to hate him, I know it. At least then Dad might shut up about my finding a boyfriend, but I'm still not ready to tell him. Mom's going to be the next person to find out, I just have to prepare her a bit. Cory got in trouble for drinking and driving again, his 2nd DUI, and I'm so disappointed in him. For a while he'd really quit drinking, and things were going so well for him. I don't know what happened to make him think he needed to  drink again, but I'm so fucking upset he didn't resist that impulse. He's going to be on probation until he's almost 29, and that sucks. I know he was upset by the loss of our uncle too, but that isn't the way to handle things. I also wanted to mention Chester Bennington's death, it was so sad. I know I'm not the only person who was touched by the lyrics he wrote and the words he sang, but I'm going to say my piece anyway. I was one of the probably millions of angry, lonely, scared kids who bought Linkin Park's first 2 albums and found solace and peace in their music, I felt validated and understood by someone I knew I'd never meet, and that was enough to get me through that. I still say "Numb" puts my feelings about Mom into words better than I ever could, and I still listen to that song. I guess that's really all I wanted to say about that. Thank you for reading.
BYE!!!!