Birthday party, coffee, and needing peace and quiet

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Good morning, and happy (almost) birthday to me. I can't believe I'm almost 31, though I don't look it. I had to plan this birthday party for tomorrow because everyone is too busy to have a party any other day, which is kind of sad. I've shut my cell phone off for a while, got a good cup of coffee, and just need to have some quiet time with a good game or anime. I wish Jack could spend some time with me on my birthday, but that isn't going to happen.  I know he and I are never going to be like this couple here, and I accept it, but hate it. I feel like I really need to be away from him for a good while and maybe I'll feel better. I even looked into moving to Japan, which is drastic, but there are so many things that remind me of him and so many things I'd rather not think about here. I had a bit of a fight with my dad about why I'm not married, again, and don't really want to be around him either. I hate that he seems to think that's all there is for me in life and I couldn't do anything greater than get married and have kids. I'm not knocking those who've done those things, but I want my dad to realize that it's not for everyone. I can't tell you how grateful I am that my mom doesn't push this shit on me. That's why I can actually talk to Mom about shit, though, she doesn't make me feel like this.She also doesn't make me feel bad for loving anime, manga, comics, and games. I've really liked "Itachi Shinden" so far, but I can't be counted on to be objective when it comes to one of my favorite anime characters of all time.

  I know part of it is the massive crush I have on him that makes me say this, but I also felt really sorry for him. I actually cried when I heard all about his back story and all the things that kind of made him who he was. Needless to say, I hate that he got kind of fucked over by circumstances that were really beyond his control. All right, enough about him. I'm really looking forward to going at least on vacation to Japan again and I was seriously thinking about moving there. The only thing that gives me pause is how much it would hurt my family if I'm not there, especially Mom. I know my parents are getting older too, and I don't know what's going to happen to them. I'm still pissed at my dad,. but I just need to vent and be away from him for a while, and I'll be all right. I know I could always come back, but I really don't think they'd want me to go in the first place. I feel like I really need a chance of scenery, though. I think that's it for now.
Today's song is " Break the cycle" by Motionless in White
BYEEE!!

New music, stress, and plans

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Good morning, and sorry I haven't written in a while again. I've been so stupidly busy these past couple of weeks. I was out of town last week, and didn't bring my laptop with me. I also caught the flu from one of my people and I'm so pissed to be sick again. This was definitely a time of unexpected invitations, too. Jack sent me a link to his band's new song, and an invitation to one of their shows on April 13th. What the fuck? I thought we weren't going to see each other anymore and I thought it would be easier to make a clean break from him. I hate myself for saying this, but their new song sounds so good. I also got invited by one of my cousins who works in Japan to come and visit him, and he'd show me around the area since I've never been to this part of Japan before. It's a nice offer, but I kind of already promised Cassie she and I would go to Tokyo and I don't want to back out of that. I'm wondering if I can make it so all three of us can travel together, but I kind of just wanted this to be a girls' trip for me and her. I know my cousin said he'd understand if I didn't visit him, but at the same time I don't want to hurt his feelings, or Cassie's, or Jack's, I'm so uncertain as to what to do, I can't really go back to Jack now, it'd be too weird. I want it to be just Cassie and I in Tokyo because every time we've traveled with our brothers, they always bitch about how much luggage we have, and I'm sure our cousin would too. Let us pack unnecessary shit if we want to, all right? We always carried it ourselves, anyway. I definitely feel like I need a break and next Spring can't come soon enough if that's when we're going to Japan again. I would actually love to live in Japan, if I could, but I know it's not that easy. I also want to go to Cassie's again and hang out on the lake with her. I think that's about it for right now. Thank you so much for reading.
Today's song is "The day that never comes" by Metallica
BYE!!!!!!

Interesting week

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I've been so busy this week it's nice to have this weekend to write, play video games, and relax a little bit. I ran into Jack's little brother at Starbucks and it was so weird. He actually remembered me and recognized me first, saying " Hey, Angela, I haven't seen you since you and my brother were hanging out at my show last year. How are you?" My name doesn't sound as musical coming from him as it does from Jack, but it's still funny that he remembered me. I tried to downplay the fact that Jack is being slowly cut out of my life, I didn't want to sound too depressed. I got my coffee, waved goodbye to him, and took off as quickly as possible, but it made me think of Jack the rest of that day. I can't wait to go back to Tokyo again. I can't believe the first time I went I was already trying to get away from Jack, and that was almost 6 years ago now. I really hope Cassie doesn't change her mind about going to Tokyo with me next year. Well, I could always go alone  and think I will if she decides she doesn't want to go. It's ironic that some of the best times in my life have been spent alone, isn't it? I also watched the first episode of "Itachi Shinden Hen" and really liked it. Of course, I'd probably like anything that has to do with Itachi.I can't help it, I love his character. I'd definitely say he's one of the most interesting characters in "Naruto", but that's just my opinion. I'm wondering if there are any more good games to play. I got through the last "Naruto" game in about 9 hours with very little trouble. I'm slowly making progress in My Candy Love, but I hate how slowly progress is made in that game so much. It feels like I save up action points to get through the game for at least a week, and in about half an hour they're all gone. I guess those are just my nerd problems, lol. I think that's just about it for now. Thank you for reading.
Today's song is "Perfect Weapon" by Black Veil Brides
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