Glad to be back

HEY!!
Good morning, everyone. I'm going to try to write more again and not let myself get overwhelmed with all the shit I'm supposed to do. I was thinking about that music video I was talking about last time, and in it Jack makes a lot of hand gestures that I do, just like I do. It's just funny to think we even do the same stupid things with our hands when we sing or talk. I still very much want to go back to Tokyo again, I think I will. I already feel like I need a vacation, but will have to wait at least until I can go to the beach with Cassie again. I think that's going to be very nice once I'm actually there. I think I just want to shut my cell phone off for a few hours and sit quietly by the water. It would nice if I could bring myself not to think about things, but I wouldn't count on that. I think that's all for today. Thank you so much for reading.
Today's song  is " A Tout Le Monde" by Megadeth
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New music, friends, family, and joy

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Good morning, everyone. I was just watching a music video Jack's band released a couple of weeks ago, and it's really good. The song is even better, but I love watching his face in the video most of all. He gets this look of " Yeah!! I got that perfectly" on his face a couple times in the video and it's very funny to me. It's nice to know someone else's face that well, you know? I know how seriously he takes his music though, so I won't make fun even gently anymore. I was talking to Mike about Jon's death and how I'd never lost a friend before, and he said "I care about you unconditionally, I've always got a shoulder to cry on and I'm here anytime." I needed to hear that, but it almost made me cry in front of him, which I never want to do. I just need to be reminded sometimes that I'm not in this alone, and (hopefully) never will be. I guess I had been feeling a little lonely because I've been so busy, and it was nice to talk to him. I can't wait to spend time with my family again, it's amazing to see just how close we've become. This reminds me of the conversation Jack and I had after he lost his dad, about needing to stay close to the people you love, give them your time, and not take them for granted. He felt he wasn't as good a son as his dad deserved, and that he didn't give him all the time and attention he could have, I told him he'd been an amazing son and it's very obvious how much his entire family, not just his dad, loves him. I couldn't bring myself to say (again) that I love him at that point, he already knows anyway. I definitely want to go back to Tokyo, and October is looking good. I need to get planning, though. I want to go to Odaiba, The Ghibli Museum, and spend more time in Shibuya, particularly at Shibuya 109 and The Mugiwara Store, where they have life size statues of all the characters. I'm so pissed at myself for not knowing about this the last time I was there. I'll be taking some pictures of and with these guys for sure. ^_~  

 I think that's it for now. Thank you for reading.
Today's song is "Prelude 12/21" by AFI
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I've been gone too long

HEY!!!
Good morning, everyone. I'm incredibly sorry it's taken me so long to get my ass back here. I have no other excuse than things got crazy. One of the people I'm taking care of is most likely on her deathbed right now and another had a stroke a few weeks ago. That was a very depressing opening, I'm sorry. I'm doing well otherwise, as is my family and everyone else I love. Jack invited me to another show. I swear he's the only who never gives up on me. I had to get my computer repaired again, and had to get a new cell phone, the old one died.. I got into another argument with my dad over why I'm not married, I just don't know why this matters so much to him. It's my business and I want him to let me make up my own mind about how I want to live and what I want to do. I need to quit talking about my dad, it just pisses me off. I'm going to the show to see Jack, I need to see him. He seems much more like himself again, but his dad's death still hurts him a lot. Mom made it safely home from Austria, and seems really glad to be back. I just wish it had been a more fun trip for her. I'm also seriously considering going back to Tokyo in October, and I really want to go. There's still shit I didn't get to see or do and I don't want to regret not gong and doing those things while I had the chance. I'm going to see Cassie and the rest of my family in a few weeks for my birthday party, I'm looking forward to just having a little break. She also already asked when we're going to the beach together, and I'd like to go ass soon as possible, assuming I don't get sunburned again. I think that's it for right now. Thank you so much for reading.
Today's song is "Mama" by My Chemical Romance
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