Good morning, everyone. I had an amazing Christmas, all the effort time I put into getting ready for it paid off. I can't tell you how nice it was to hug my entire family and tell them how much I need and love them. I don't think we spend enough time together, and that needs to change. I feel bad that I didn't invite my dad over for Christmas, but he and Mom, Cassie, and Mark don't get along and I really wanted them here. I think he has a very different image of me that isn't who I am at all. I can be myself with the rest of my family; they know, love, and accept the real me. I'm still getting used to having him back in my life, and he doesn't always make it easy to accept him. It isn't that I don't love him and that he doesn't have good qualities, he just expects me to let him into my life entirely and I don't think I'm ready to do that yet. He wants to meet my friends and shit and I hardly have time to see them, you know? I'm going to switch subjects now. Jack and the guys have been working on new songs, starting to record demos, and it's so cool. He seems excited about the music but sad that it takes him away from his family and friends. This is something he struggles with often, it seems to bother him deeply. He didn't spend Christmas with his family again and I know he hated that. Jon's family and friends are having a benefit concert for him next week, and I'm going to go. I want so much for him to get better, but I don't know if it's really possible. I think that's it for now. Thank you so much for reading.
Today's song is " The Beautiful People" by Marilyn Manson
BYE!!!!!!
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