Cold...

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Good morning, everyone. I'm home sick, it's just a cold but I don't want it to get worse. I felt fine yesterday, I don't understand. Mom is leaving for Austria in a week, and I'll be watching her house while she's gone. I really don't want any more responsibility, but I couldn't say no. She wants to go see my grandma who isn't very healthy, and I understand. Part of me wishes I could go too, but I'll be fine where I am. I'm sure all my little cousins are upset I'm not coming, they got very close to Cassie and I. Cassie wants me to help her book some plane tickets for her and her boyfriend, which I really don't want to do either. I got a friend request on Facebook from this random guy, and this is not the first time. I didn't like the message he sent me so I declined his request, I just wish things like this wouldn't happen.  I think that's it for today, I just wanted to write for a little bit.
Today's song is "Dig up her bones" by The Misfits
BYE!!!!!!

Christmas craziness

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Good morning, everyone. I had an amazing Christmas, all the effort time I put into getting ready for it paid off. I can't tell you how nice it was to hug my entire family and tell them how much I need and love them. I don't think we spend enough time together, and that needs to change. I feel bad that I didn't invite my dad over for Christmas, but he and Mom, Cassie, and Mark don't get along and I really wanted them here. I think he has a very different image of me that isn't who I am at all. I can be myself with the rest of my family; they know, love, and accept the real me.  I'm still getting used to having him back in my life, and he doesn't always make it easy to accept him. It isn't that I don't love him and that he doesn't have good qualities, he just expects me to let him into my life entirely and I don't think I'm ready to do that yet. He wants to meet my friends and shit and I hardly have time to see them, you know? I'm going to switch subjects now. Jack and the guys have been working on new songs, starting to record demos, and it's so cool. He seems excited about the music but sad that it takes him away from his family and friends. This is something he struggles with often, it seems to bother him deeply. He didn't spend Christmas with his family again and I know he hated that. Jon's family and friends are having a benefit concert for him next week, and I'm going to go. I want so much for him to get better, but I don't know if it's really possible. I think that's it for now. Thank you so much for reading.
Today's song is " The Beautiful People" by Marilyn Manson
BYE!!!!!!

SO sorry

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Good morning, everyone. I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to get back here again. My laptop is having trouble again and I had to have it fixed. I had a great Thanksgiving, and talked to Jack for a little bit about how similar our respective days were. We both got to our moms' houses early and ended up playing games with our families for hours. I went to another of his shows last night and had such a good time. I'm still so happy he's inviting me at all after all this time and all the shit we've been through together. He said they're working and some more songs and are very close to being finished with them. I can't believe I've known him for almost 5 years now, it doesn't seem that long. I got some horrible news about my friend Jon though, he has a very rare form of cancer and it doesn't seem like he's not going to live much longer. I can't tell you how sad this makes me, I've known this guy since I was 12 and he's dying. I can't really do anything for him either, which just makes things worse. I keep hoping maybe something will happen and he'll beat the cancer after all, but it doesn't seem very likely. I need to switch subjects now before I start crying. I'm very close to being ready for Christmas, I've got my tree ready and a shitload of presents. I think that's it for today. Thank you so much for reading.
Today's song is " Thank you for the venom" by My Chemical Romance
BYE!!!!!!!!