I'm really sorry for my lack of upkeep on this blog. It's been so long since I've really had any time to myself. I'm not saying that's a bad thing, but I can't exactly get my thoughts sorted out unless I have peace and quiet and a fair amount of time to write. I've been thinking again about moving to Japan. I don't want to tell my parents how seriously I've been considering this, just because I feel I need a change of scenery so badly. I know Jack's wedding is coming up and quite frankly the less I hear about it the better. I don't blame him for going with a girl who was willing to give him the time and attention he deserves, but that doesn't mean it doesn't break my fucking heart. Part of the reason I've been so busy is that I've been trying to distract myself from these thoughts, but it only goes so far. I know I don't necessarily want to be alone forever, but I don't want to be with a guy I don't really love just to say that at least I have a guy. Maybe I am a victim of my own picky and hard headed nature in that respect. Anyway, enough about my man troubles. I should probably fill you guys in on what else has been going on in my life. I'm going to see "Pirates of the Caribbean; Dead Men Tell no Tales" later and "Wonder Woman" next weekend. It makes me happy to go to the movies, so that's what I do if I get depressed. I can't help thinking of Jack's love of the Pirates movies and how that helped us grow closer as friends, and I hate it. I really can't wait to see "Kuroko no Basuke; Last Game" when it comes out on Blu-ray or DVD, I wish I'd had the guts to tell Cassie that I wanted to go see this movie was in theaters in Japan when we were there and it was playing. I wouldn't have needed subtitles, I'm really improving my Japanese. Cassie doesn't like sports anime and doesn't get why I do and I really didn't want to start an argument over something relatively minor like this. I'm also going swimming after I finish writing, it's been hotter than hell lately. My family life is going as well as can be expected, though I still have trouble getting my parents to understand my feelings often. I think that's it for today, thank you for reading.
Today's song is Zakuro" by Dir En Grey \
BYE!!!!!
