Finally back again

HEY!!!
Good morning, and sorry I've been gone so much again. I had to go out of town for work last weekend, so I didn't even get to have my gaming session with my girls. I really missed it. I have to fess up right now and say that I saw Jack yesterday, I'd missed him so much. I hate the power he still has over me and how difficult it really is for me to let him go.  He even hugged me and gave me tickets to his band's next 2 shows. What the fuck am I going to do with this guy? I can't help loving him, yet I know I can't be with him. He doesn't seem to want to let go of our friendship, either. Do I remain his friend and ignore that it kills me to know that's all we're ever going to be or move on and try to find a guy who makes me feel this way too but is actually in love with me? I did have a really nice conversation last weekend with Cory, that was pretty much the highlight of my weekend. I'm glad we can talk like this and are friends again. I think that's it for right now.
Thanks so much for reading.
Today's song is "Uroko" by Dir En Grey
BYE!!!

So much to do, so little time

HEY!!!
I had to stop and write for at least a while. I'm sorry I haven't been here lately, but my computer is being a piece of shit and I've been too fucking busy to fix it. I've also been doing a lot of swimming and gaming, so I guess I should admit that if I'd cut down on those just a bit, I could have fixed my computer by now. But work has been insane, the only thing that makes it bearable is I get to work with Jessica. I'm still doing my gaming sessions with her, Julia, Angela, and Marie. I love that we have our own little girl gaming group. Danny's leg should be healed enough that he can go back to work in a week, and I'm  so happy for him. It's good to see him walking around and doing things he couldn't at first. There's still the possibility he's going to have to have surgery, but I'm hoping he won't. I just want him to finally be better and get his life back to normal. I think he also wants something to do, he seems super bored every time I talk to him. I got invited to Jack's band's shows on the 20th, and I don't know if I can or should go. I know his girlfriend is going to be there, and I feel like it would be a disaster if I showed up. I don't know if I should keep doing this with him, I love him, but obviously not as much as he loves her, you know? I need to move on and I think a good start is not to hang out with him anymore. I think that's it for now.
Today's song is "Utafumi" by Dir En Grey.
BYE!!!!