Tired..again

HEY!!!! I hope you guys had a good Memorial Day weekend. Except for the mosquito bites I got, I did. I helped Cory get some boxes yesterday, so he can move into his new apartment at the end of the week. I'm kind of glad to have him around again. I just hope this roommate will be better than the last one he had. I didn't get much sleep last night, this huge rain storm woke me up and I had a hell of a time going back to sleep afterward. It's kind of tough, coming back to work after a long weekend, too. I'm lucky we're all allowed to come in a little late today. I don't want to go at all, to be honest. Mark did something amazingly sweet and cute yesterday, I swear he's the best little brother ever. He actually made me lunch for today, so I wouldn't have to. I just had to share that, it really got to me.

Jack and the guys are recording stuff for their next EP today, which means I won't hear shit from them unless something goes wrong and they want to complain. I can't wait to get it, their new songs are really good from what I've heard of them. I used to think those stories where a girl just randomly meets a gorgeous, awesome, mysterious guy who inexplicably takes an interest in her were total bullshit, until I met Jack. That's basically what happened with us, so now I can't really call those stories unrealistic anymore. I just started reading the Peach Girl manga, I'm way late to the party there. It's really good, and I kind of like reading about a girl whose love life is more terrible than mine. I guess that's really about it for right now, I have to drag my ass to work now. Thanks for reading, and PLEASE keep reading.
Today's song is "Spellbound" by Siouxsie and the banshees

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Back again

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I just found out that my friend Megan, that one who's friends with Jack, has a new boyfriend. She's dating a guy named Derrek. I would have gotten really upset if she asked Jack out, and he said yes. God, this sounds immature, but I can't help it. Jack's counting down the days until Warped Tour starts. I kind of hate watching Derrek and Megan together, I get so jealous because I'm single and I can't be with the one guy I want. I'm being petty, and I'm sorry. I can't really tell her any of this, either, of course. She has as much right to be happy as anyone else. It's just because she had the guts to actually ask him, and he isn't as good looking as Jack. I'm finally going to go to Dark Shadows today, I can't wait. It's going to be awesome. I'm really glad someone actually invited me, I didn't expect it. It's not Jack who invited me, he's so damn busy with recording an practicing, he barely does anything else anymore. I don't begrudge him that, since it's his dream to be doing this. I guess that's it for right now. Thanks for reading.
Today's song is "Just like heaven" by The Cure

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Yet another post

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I'm back again. Mom and Cassie are on their way to France, the strike didn't last very long. I'm kind of like Konata in that I look like a shorter version of my mom. Danny gave in and called Dad yesterday, and it seemed to make Dad very happy. I don't know what they talked about, but I know Danny hasn't forgiven him yet. Hell, I haven't forgiven him yet. I know it's never that easy though, to repair relationships like that. I personally spent years and years being angry at him. I know it's kind of a cliche' to have a goth girl with daddy issues, but that was totally me. I don't want to be angry, but in some cases I can't help it. I didn't really want to tell my friends about it, because it was a really sore subject, but they were incredibly understanding. Of course, it's not like I was the only kid there with divorced parents. I think Mark feels the same way, his dad and Mom aren't together anymore, either. I also wanted to comment that he and I celebrated World Goth Day on the 22nd, and I forgot to make mention of it here. I don't know if it's "age appropriate" still or not for me to be dressing goth. I don't go really over the top, because I have to work, but I'm definitely still goth. Everything I own is still black, of course. Even a black apron for when I'm cooking and washing dishes. I'm

thinking of baking some more cookies in a little while, the kind Mike gave me the recipe for. He was right, they're amazing cookies. I also read some more lyrics Jack wrote, they're good. I love trading poems and song lyrics with him and Mike. I'm listening to "Wait and bleed" again, my God I love this song. I'm so glad I got Danny and Mark into Slipknot too, I love being able to share stuff with them. It's hard to believe I've been a fan of theirs for almost 10 years already, damn. I also love that Jack and Casey are fans of theirs. I like that Mike can be religious without forcing his beliefs on everyone else. It kind of sucks that I can't get any of these guys into Dir En Grey, they can't seem to get past the fact that all their stuff is in Japanese, and of our little group, I'm the only one who understands any Japanese. Dir En Grey is a really good band, though. I have music on my i POD in English, Spanish, Japanese, and German. Music is the universal language, right? ^_~ I like the vocal acrobatics Kyo is capable of, it's pretty impressive. I guess that's it for right now. Thanks for reading, and please keep reading.
Today's song is "Different sense" by Dir En Grey
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Second post today.....

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I hope I'm not overloading you guys with content here. I just wanted to write a little more. It turns out Mom and Cassie are stuck in Italy, they wanted to go through Italy on their way to France but can't because it seems there's a strike going on in France. I also found out that Cassie is friends with one of Jack's friends, though not one of his bandmates. Small world, right? I almost forget that Jack and Cassie are closer in age that Jack and I are. >_> I should say that I want to forget that fact. I know Jack and I are more alike than Jack and Cassie are. I laughed when one of Jack's "girlfriends" started making fun of him for using a really lame excuse to get closer to any girl who was willing. He said "Girls, please help. I'm really sore after our last show. I could use a back rub." This girl said "I've used a line like that before, too. It doesn't work."  I guess that's it for right now(again).
Thanks again for reading. ^_^
Today's song is "Fallen Angles" by Black Veil Brides
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Changes....

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I'm going to be changing some things around here, though I won't change anything drastically. I'm missing Jack again, believe it or not. I feel very much like I've just given him my heart, and he's not taking very good care of it. He's so excited for Summer to come, and Warped Tour to start, and I dread it. I really should quit talking about him. Mark told me yesterday that he quit being friends with this kid he'd started hanging out with, because he was stupid, immature, and an asshole. It's weird hearing that from a 17 year old kid, but that's exactly what he said. What's funny is this kid was about 6 months older than Mark. He and I had a horror movie marathon last night because I couldn't think of anything better to do. I feel kind of bad for Mark though, being a smart sensitive, kid isn't easy. It makes it a lot more difficult to make friends, believe me. He's a good kid, but kind of awkward and shy. He's adorable in that way, I think. I know I've influenced him quite a bit since I baby sat him so much when he was little, and now that he hangs out at my apartment so much. I hope I've been a good influence on him. I guess that's really it for right now. Thanks a lot for reading, please keep it up. I can't believe I've got more than 19,000 page views here.
Today's song is "I'm not okay(I promise)" by My Chemical Romance

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Cold.....

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I'm still not feeling great, but I guess I should be glad it's not worse. I gave Mark my cold too, and he feels terrible. I feel really guilty, I should have known not to hug him when I was sick. I got him some medicine, and hope it works quickly and well. I'm so glad I went to Jack's band's show, and can't wait until I can have their new songs on my i POD. I saw a rather different side of Mike at that show, he said "I wanna see some people moving right fucking now!!!" It's just weird because he doesn't usually swear, unlike Jack and I who swear basically all the time. I didn't see it coming, since he's always Mr. Nice Guy, you know? I have to admit, I found it kind of funny. I can't believe how cold it's gotten here lately, I hate it. It's supposed to be June soon damn it, and it doesn't feel like it. I'm staying inside with my coffee until I absolutely have to go to work. I hope Mom and Cassie are
having fun on their trip, I kind of miss them already. I love them. I should probably be eating something as I write this, but I'm not really hungry and plan to skip breakfast this morning. It's weird, before I lost weight, I'd never skip meals. I got a complement from the strangest source a few days ago, Kevin. I was bitching about how I'm never going to be really super skinny, no matter how much weight I've lost. He sent me a message saying that most super skinny girls are stuck up bitches, and I'm not. He also said that I'm kind and generous with everyone and have a great heart. I didn't really expect to hear back from him, let alone to get such a nice complement. I know that Jack told Mike now nice I am, too. I hope it's true, I don't always feel like a very nice girl. I should be glad to be thought of like that, right? I just think I do a better job of repressing my darker side than most people, and that's why everyone says I'm so nice. I want to be a good person, but often chafe and always having to be "the good girl", when I don't always want to. Granted, I know I've done a lot to help out the people I love, but even that isn't entirely altruistic. I want these people to think well of me, you know? I've become so cynical, I even question my own motives, lol. It's not that I don't love all of them and want the best for them, but I also have to admit that I want them to see me in the most positive light possible. Is that selfish? I wonder if it bothers Mike to always be the nice guy, while Jack just does whatever the hell he wants. I imagine it does sometimes, though I've never asked him about it. I guess that's it for right now. Thanks for reading. ^_^
Today's song is "The god that failed" by Metallica
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FUN

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God, last night was awesome. I can't believe how much better they play now. Except for the huge group of mosquitoes that seemed to hover right outside the club, and a slight rain, it was perfect. The rain itself wasn't even that bad, it was more of a warm gentle Spring rain. I really like their new songs, and the rest of the crowd seemed to agree with me. Mike and I were dressed from head to toe in black again, but (thankfully) Jack made it through this show without hurting himself. I'm not picking on him, I swear. ^_~ I didn't get much sleep last night, as you can imagine, but I don't care. It wasn't fair to Jack to keep putting him and Mike on the back burner all the time. You'll notice I don't talk about Casey very much, he and I aren't as close. I have a lot more in common with Jack and Mike, but Casey is still a nice guy.  At least I don't look bad after only a few hours of sleep. That's probably because I went and had my hair and nails done before I went to the show, and they still look good. I can't believe how good Jack looked last night though, he's got this glow about him onstage that just adds to his natural good looks. I guess that's really it for right now. Thanks for reading, please keep reading.
Today's song is "Rip out the wings of a butterfly" by HIM

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